Kabar yang tertanyakan

Apa kabar kamu?
Sudah makan belum? Atau sudahkah kamu terbangun dari tidurmu yang selalu pulas seperti biasanya?

Ah, biasanya? Mungkin seharusnya ku ganti kata itu dengan 'dulu'.
Namun, masihkah kau melakukan itu? Semenjak kamu hilang dari kehidupanku?
Aku tak tau apa yang kamu lakukan sampai saat ini. Baik atau buruknya keadaanmu.

Haha. Terlihat bodohkah aku sekarang?
Bagaimana aku bisa tahu tentang dirimu, sedangkan kamu saja enggan untuk memberi tahu.
Bahkan kata 'kembali' tak pernah aku dapatkan.

Lalu tahukah kamu hal-hal yang mulai aku lakukan sejak kepergianmu?
Hal yang kini hampir tak pernah ku lewatkan. Saat sosokmu tertangkap bayangan mataku.
Baik di dunia nyata maupun dunia maya.

Tidak tahu ya?
Ya, kelihatannya kamu memang tak pernah mau tahu.

Namun, bagiku memeperhatikanmu dari kejauhan.
Dari tempat yang tak terlihat olehmu.
Merupakan satu kepuasan tersendiri, mendapati kamu tersenyum bahagia, tertawa lepas, meluapkan perasanmu.
Sangat indah.

Walaupun terkadang hal itu dapat menjadi begitu pahit.
Ketika terlintas dalam benakku, jika semua hal yang nampak dari luar itu adalah palsu.

Lagi-lagi, aku hanya bisa menanyakan dalam hati.
Menanyakan tentang kabarmu, kabar yang sesungguhnya.

Kamu dan sihirmu.

Hai, "kamu".
Yang mungkin sedang tertawa bersama "dia" seperti yang kita lakukan dulu.

Tapi pernahkah secercah ingatan tentang aku menelusup dalam celah kecilmu?
Hilangkah kenangan itu? Terselipkah entah dimana?
Dalam kelam hatimu mungkin? Ya, mungkin.
Apakah ia seperti file yang tersembunyi? Atau bahkan telah musnah tanpa ku sadari?

Lalu untuk apakah kau selami samudera hatiku yang terdalam kala itu?
Mengambil mutiara yang kilaunya memudar.
Dan kau sihirkannya sesuatu magis, tak memiliki kata, yang tak semua orang dapat lakukan.

Ilusi belaka-kah hal itu?
Mengapa aku merasa hal itu nyata? Yang kini masih terasa pasti.
Ya, walaupun telah  ku tahu rasa itu mulai berteman kekecewaan.
Sejak kamu tinggalkannya didasar, menjatuhkannya.
Tidak peduli bagaimana keadaannya, kau pun menghilang dengan sihirmu yang masih tanpa kata.

Tiba-tiba, kamu muncul dengan dia.
Disisi lain, di daratan yang mungkin adalah tempatmu seharusnya bernafas.

John Mayer - Heartbreak Warfare

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.

Christina Perri - Arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You

I don’t know but

I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to do
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spilling out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
I think I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

Alicia Keys - Doesn't Mean Anything

Used to dream of being a millionaire, without a care

But if I’m seeing my dreams, and you aren’t there
’cause it’s over
that just wont be fair
darling,
rather be a poor woman living on the street,
no food to eat,
cause i don't want no body if i have to cry.
cause it's over
when you said goodbye!

all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

now i see myself through different eyes,
it's no surprise!
being alone will make you realize
when it's over!
all in love is fair I shoulda been there, I shoulda been there, I shoulda shoulda.


all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

I know I pushed you away
What can I do that would save our love
Take these material things
They don’t mean nothing
Its you that I want
All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

Alicia Keys - Girl On Fire (feat Nicki Minaj)

 [Nicki Minaj]

Spirit of Marilyn calling me, audibly
Bawling she, said that she would never leave
Continued to torture me
Telling me to come with her
Underneath my comforter
And she brought a gun with her
Pills and some rum with her
Took me on the balcony telling me to jump with her
Yeah I’m in the ghost but I ain’t doing stunts with her
I ain’t tryna be that haters wanna see that
But I got ‘em aggy cause I win the gold like Gabby

[Alicia Keys]
She’s just a girl and she’s on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, longer like a highway
She’s living in a world and it’s on fire
Fill with catastrophe, but she know she can fly away

Oh, she got both feet on the ground
And she’s burning it down
Oh, she got her head in the clouds
And she’s not backing down

This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She’s walking on fire
This girl is on fire

Looks like a girl but she’s a flame
So bright she can burn your eyes
Better look the other way
You can try but you’ll never forget her name
She’s on top of the world
Hottest of the hottest girls say

Oh, we got our feet on the ground
And we’re burning it down
Oh, got our head in the clouds
And we’re not coming down

This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She’s walking on fire
This girl is on fire

[Alicia Keys]
Everybody stands as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that’s in her eyes
Watch her when she’s lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she’s a lonely girl
And it’s a lonely world
But she gon’ let it burn baby burn baby

[Nicki Minaj]
Dear God, If you’re here God
Make the fire disappear when they stare God
Take away my fear when they interfere God
Do you fear God? Cause I fear God
And in my backyard, that’s a deer, God
And that’s a horse ranch
And to my core fans keep repping me
Do it to the death of me
X in the box cause ain’t nobody checking me

This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She’s walking on fire
This girl is on fire

Oh, oh, oh…
She’s just a girl, and she’s on fire